Kynton has become a beautiful little boy. I actually crafted this email to him while on a flight from Portland to Chicago at 6 am this morning. I wanted to capture for him how much he means to me and I feel like this does not give my feelings true justice. But, I needed to say sorry to him. Sorry for losing control. Sorry for not acting as the adult and losing my cool. And all over a clogged toilet. Geez, he's four years old. Of course he's going to see how many Kandoo flushable wipes fit into the toilet bowl. Who wouldn't?!? But unfortunately, Kendel and I couldn't see it through his eyes. We couldn't place ourselves in a four-year-old's shoes -- and we lost it. So, rather than saying a happy goodbye, we said a tearful one.
I honestly hope he forgets this episode and it isn't a memory he'll draw upon at a later date.
Here's my attempt at making peace via an email sent to my mom to share with him:
K.Y.N.T.O.N.
K is for Kynton: Kute, Krazy, Komical, Klever and Karing. Silly mommy all those words start with C, not K! :) K is for my little knight in shining armor.
Y is for Yellow. Your personality is like a shining, yellow ball of fire -- like the sun. Everything you do fills me with bright, yellow, happiness -- just like the sun does for the flowers. You are the light of my life shining a bright, yellow, happy light all the time.
N is for Never. You are amazing and your excitement for life is breathtaking. You go, go, go, never needing a moment's rest. I never cease to be amazed by your energy and strength and all the amazing things you can accomplish with your little body. You never doubt your ability to do something and I'm constantly impressed by your willingness to tackle life with a smile on your face.
T is for Terrific. You live life to the fullest, always. You make every day interesting, fun and terrific. You're a terrific son, brother, friend and person!
O is for Outgoing. I've never met a little boy with a more outgoing and fun personality. Everyone wants to be your friend because you are so much fun to be around. Thank you for being my best friend!
N is for Nice. You are such a nice, loving, caring boy. You are nice to everyone you meet. I love how you treat everyone like they are your friend, especially your little brother. You are the nicest boy I have ever met!
Kynton, please know how much I love you. I'm sorry we went our separate ways last night with such sadness and anger. I was very frustrated with the way the day went, but please don't ever question how much I love and care for you. I can't imagine what my life would be without you and I thank God every day for bringing you into the world and placing you in my arms.
I hope you enjoy your special time with Daddy, Keagan and Oma and Opa while I'm gone. I'll miss you a lot, but I know you'll have a wonderful time.
I love you, Kynton. I hope you have a wonderful day and it won't be long before I'm home with you again.
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Mommy
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